It wasn’t supposed to happen. Not to me. Yet, two agonizing days after the birth of my first child I knew that things weren’t right. It had nothing to do with my brand new baby boy, Max. He was perfect.
The beautiful, full-head of dark brown hair and angelic dark blue-eyed newborn was healthy. No, he was everything I’d ever imagined him to be and more. Instead, it was me. There was something wrong. Terribly wrong.
I brought my new son home less than two days after a long, exhausting induced labor and was scared beyond belief to leave the hospital. I had never been around babies before.
I was almost thirty-three years old and had no idea how to even change a dirty diaper let alone breast-fed a baby. I was afraid to hold him, panicked when I heard him cry and felt unbelievably exhausted, sore, anxious and scared. (more…)
When did you first become a mother?
I will become a mother at the end of June. At the moment, I am carrying a huge egg-shaped belly!
Where in the world do you live? And, are you from there?
I live in Rome, Italy, and I was born here. I used to live in New York (two years) and Paris (two years), which makes me kind of a gipsy.
My family and life are now in Rome ,and it’s definitely a pleasant place to live in for both, children and adults.
What language(s) do you speak?
I speak Italian (of course), English, French and a little bit of Spanish.
I really like to learn languages and, for some reason, it comes really easy to me.
However, the writing part gets a little more difficult sometimes. (more…)
When the wee lad was born, we had read all about the baby’s development, up until that point. I mean, that I had read everything there was to read about the pregnancy, including what was happening to the baby and what was happening to me. There was so much to focus on, and it didn’t actually cross my mind that I should read the next chapter, i.e. what happens when the baby is actually there.
To be honest, I had also skipped the chapter that was focusing on the birth, as I found it too scary! I was just so caught up in the moment, and there was so much information to deal with that I didn’t have the capacity to read about the next steps. (more…)